Your piece resonated. My own āeventā was my mom getting MS when I was young. Watching her decline terrified me, and I carried that fear everywhere, even believing I could get sick the same way (which no one knows what causes it). I also watched my dad juggle everything, and I grew up scared, anxious, and unsure how to explain what I felt.
What you wrote about how those early moments shape us and how we can choose something different now really landed. Thank you for putting words to it.
Hmmmm! Thank you for sharing your experience with me. Iām grateful that you felt safe to be vulnerable. I appreciate how it landed for you as a way of putting words to it.
Itās very hard to experience the illness of a parent. Especially growing up and being so young and tender. Iām glad that you are able and willing to see the fear as an opportunity for a deeper understanding and relationship with yourself. ā¤ļø
In my experience, in the events that shape us, mold us, conform us .. to keep love out and shield us from being in pain or even from feeling a lack of love itself from an event.. we unconsciously can be running our own matrix. As in ā¦ shaping ourselves to believe something that doesnāt let love inā¦ our out.
Hard q? Does the deep seated perfectionism shield your love? From receiving and giving?
It sounds like a persona?
Iāll add some items in from the Hendricks Institute on persona play.
this is what i needed to knowā¦ on how to not be āstuckā in the past and Allow yourself to enjoy the new experiences instead of being scared of itā¦ i am still learning this but reading this helped me! thanks for writing this beautiful piece, dawn! ā„ļøš«
We are all humans here and grappling with a past that has shaped our behaviors of this moment. I, too, have struggled with these things. šµāš«š«¤ am still struggling with one right now.. a biggy!
And! Iām allowing myself to wonder on it. About it. It doesnāt look so scary when itās a known thing and youāre feeling it out.. taking responsibility for it. Empowering yourself!
I am honored that you have been able to use this in your life. š š«
Thank you š and though I am by no means an expert I have been able to stumble my way through feeling into these events and leaving behind some of the processed grit. Of course Iād love to connect. Iām available in the afternoons all week.
Iām finding my lumps of shining self again! Lumps of light and gold š
Great hearing from you Dawn. Let's connect next week Wed 2pm EST if your schedule allows on Zoom for 45 min. btw I just connected and had a goose bump call with @your body knows by K.Covington ā¦highly recommend her talent. You will find more lumps of your shining self with Karen. Lol. We talk soon.
Your piece resonated. My own āeventā was my mom getting MS when I was young. Watching her decline terrified me, and I carried that fear everywhere, even believing I could get sick the same way (which no one knows what causes it). I also watched my dad juggle everything, and I grew up scared, anxious, and unsure how to explain what I felt.
What you wrote about how those early moments shape us and how we can choose something different now really landed. Thank you for putting words to it.
Hmmmm! Thank you for sharing your experience with me. Iām grateful that you felt safe to be vulnerable. I appreciate how it landed for you as a way of putting words to it.
Itās very hard to experience the illness of a parent. Especially growing up and being so young and tender. Iām glad that you are able and willing to see the fear as an opportunity for a deeper understanding and relationship with yourself. ā¤ļø
It's interesting how you connect these dots. What if that deep seated perfectionism is actualy just a really sophisticated coping strategy?
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In my experience, in the events that shape us, mold us, conform us .. to keep love out and shield us from being in pain or even from feeling a lack of love itself from an event.. we unconsciously can be running our own matrix. As in ā¦ shaping ourselves to believe something that doesnāt let love inā¦ our out.
Hard q? Does the deep seated perfectionism shield your love? From receiving and giving?
It sounds like a persona?
Iāll add some items in from the Hendricks Institute on persona play.
this is what i needed to knowā¦ on how to not be āstuckā in the past and Allow yourself to enjoy the new experiences instead of being scared of itā¦ i am still learning this but reading this helped me! thanks for writing this beautiful piece, dawn! ā„ļøš«
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We are all humans here and grappling with a past that has shaped our behaviors of this moment. I, too, have struggled with these things. šµāš«š«¤ am still struggling with one right now.. a biggy!
And! Iām allowing myself to wonder on it. About it. It doesnāt look so scary when itās a known thing and youāre feeling it out.. taking responsibility for it. Empowering yourself!
I am honored that you have been able to use this in your life. š š«
Dawn, you got my attention on this graph. I would love to be educated and learn more about this. You seem to be an expert. Let's connect soon.
Thank you š and though I am by no means an expert I have been able to stumble my way through feeling into these events and leaving behind some of the processed grit. Of course Iād love to connect. Iām available in the afternoons all week.
Iām finding my lumps of shining self again! Lumps of light and gold š
Great hearing from you Dawn. Let's connect next week Wed 2pm EST if your schedule allows on Zoom for 45 min. btw I just connected and had a goose bump call with @your body knows by K.Covington ā¦highly recommend her talent. You will find more lumps of your shining self with Karen. Lol. We talk soon.